Sunday, October 11, 2009
At least things seems to be brighter now. Or i would say things are better now after talking to her. Was stressed over the last few days on what to talk to her about but anyway its settle le so a huge relief i would say. At least things were thrash out and not just hanging in the air. Though it wasnt a bad ending of a good ending either, but at least things were clearer now. Really thank her for her understanding. *Thanks* . Felt like a girl just now cause i was like stuttering when i talk to her during the initial part, but well who wont be nervous. Was once again happy to see her joyful smile and laughter like after 1 month? If your wondering what i'm talking about it might nt be what you are thinking. The her is not my GF but someone that i like only. Someone that i really enjoy talking to. Someone that even if i cant love as a lover, i will still love her as a friend. At least for now just take 1 step at a time. If it work out then good, if not just let it be ba.
After that met up with Fengming for lunch at eunos before heading home. Went home to sleep for awhile before studying. Another long week ahead and more studies!!!!!! ARGH. Its driving me crazy!!! Going to catch some sleep so till then. Night people :)
Labels: its more then a smile, its the connection
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Don't know why i'm so tired today. Probably because i woke up at 5am juz to wear my contact lens. HAHAS. In the end i took only like 5 mins to wear and after preparing my stuff i was like done at 550am. I even had the luxury to use my computer n surf the web for awhile which after awhile i became bored and when to take a nap. Met up with belinda at 630 at eunos market to go buy breakfast. Reached church around 710 and was still early and no one was around yet. Today changed allocation 3 times. Was suppose to do Charlie 2, after that swap to help bravo and lastly do hotel 2.
Today saw her and walked past her a few times but each time as we walked past we didnt say hi or even look at each other. Had things come to such a bad state? I really wanted to talk to her but somehow i find it hard. It just seems so weird n awkward now. I bet she doesn't know how i feel. Sigh. The feeling of so near yet so far was so real today. Seriously i really miss her alot but yet i could only look at her from a distance and that's all. Even in oscar that time she was sitting infront of me and we didn't even talk or look at each other. The only time she talked to me was returning the set and whether closing was done. And as she left all i could see was her shadow fading away. Sigh. I'm still pondering should i meet her to talk to her.
On a happy note, i got A+ for my marketing assignment!! I'm so happy!!! Really didnt expect to get a A+ but thank God for the gd result!! It was really a morale boasting for me since now i can be assured that i will pass my marketing module. But my new module, the teacher teach till very sian!!! It feels like he is preaching from a traditional church and the class was dozing off !! It's that bad !! So i got to really study myself this time. Anyway my new module which is tourism management, the assignment is group and individual. Group assignment weightage is 20% and individual is 30% followed by exam 50%.
Just watched finish F1 and currently super tired already. The night view of singapore is truely very nice. Cause more lights were on specially for the F1 night race. That's all for now going to sleep soon. Night people!!
Labels: will i see u again?
Sunday, September 13, 2009
A week has passed, i would be lying to you if i tell u i'm ok. But at least i'm better now. At least for now i want to focus on my exams next saturday and after that i will see how it goes. Today walk pass her but the feeling seems so unfamiliar so awkward but at least i found peace as i enter the house of God. I've been distracting myself with my busy workload from school. Today didnt serve cause i took a break and it feels weird sitting in service and all my ushers serving. I really miss serving with them. But i guess i have nt lost it all. Probably i will go back serving next week instead of continue my break. After talking to jade on thursday, i decided to just commit my this area into his hands. I dunno what will happen but with God in control its better then i controlling it.
Have to submit my assignment on Wed and my exams are on Sat. Halfway through my assigment after doing all my research and now is on a matter of phrasing the right stuff in to complete it. Really dun have the mood to do my assignment but i still got to do it.
Labels: in God's hand
